If only I could move to Colorado.
If only I could make it through Community.
If only I could make it through spring semester.
If only I could get a graduate nurse job in the ER.
If only I could run every day.
If only I had the money.
If only I pass my boards.
If only I was smarter.
If only I was more dedicated.
If only, if only, if only.
Can you say insecurity??? I mean, people, it is getting absurd. And I think I am beginning to waste my life away. I am returning to that circus monkey mentality that Donald Miller talks about - and it is so unsatisfying.
"So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please him." (2 Corinthians 5:9)
If only I could please him, then I may finally get it.
You are God's beloved child. YOU, not future-you. Don't forget it :-)
ReplyDeleteYou are a beautiful, wonderful, SMART woman! You will get through this last year. Keep pushing through--I'll keep the prayers coming!
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