I just relived a moment that I believe I have suppressed for years out of sheer horror and embarrassment.
When I was in middle school, I had this idea that I really enjoyed being in front of people and needed to put an end to my shy tendencies.
One summer night at Main in Motion, I entered a lip sync contest.
I remember my outfit, what my hair looked like, the people I picked out in the crowd, because it was supposed to be my moment of glory. People were supposed to think I was cool, and somehow maybe I thought I would make friends by being ballsy. I had picked the perfect song...which happened to be M2M's "Mirror Mirror".
I have a sickening feeling in my stomach now, but I think that declaring my embarrassment to everyone is good therapy.
It's safe to say that I didn't make any friends through this experience and that, if anything, I became a bigger wallflower because of it.
It is an amazing manifestation of maturity and substance to be able to show vulnerability about things that really do embarrass oneself. Freedom like you show here is simply awesome. I couldn't be prouder of you.
ReplyDeleteNow that you're coming out I have a confession to make: I ALMOST did the same thing, except I was going to do a Britney Spears song, and dress up in a Catholic school girl. Should I be admitting this? Luckily, I chickened out at the last moment. This goes to show that the brain is not fully developed at that age ;-)
ReplyDeletethe THINGS we do to be cool.
ReplyDeleteM2M.
nothing more hilarious.
it's weird, because on the topic of teens and the psychology and development of the ability to measure the consequences of actions has come up a lot in the past few days.
because of psychological changes
and "maturity"
we become less brave as we grow up.
we're less prone to be rash in certain circumstances.
good or bad?
i don't know,
but i thought i'd mention it.
hey you're cool.
mirror mirror, lie to me. show me what i wanna see.
ReplyDeleteat least you had the guts to do it - i to this day have never done a lip sync contest.