do you feel

Last night I sat around a table with 6 dear friends.  We ate cupcakes and apricots and reminisced and caught up.  We laughed often, and I had a moment where I looked around at every single person at the table, realizing that each of them is significant to me.  Brothers and sisters in my life - I just love them.

Saturday I made a call and agreed to return to Haiti for the month of August.  I tried to fall asleep that night but found myself giddy with excitement, smiling and even laughing out loud at the idea that in just a few weeks I will be flying over Titanyen.

Last night I was expressing what plans I had for the future with one of my friends here.  I don't know that I will be in nursing forever.  I will finish my degree, I will work in a hospital, but I don't know that I want to be a nurse.  All I know is that I feel more in my element when I get to work with people, being relational and being helpful.  It doesn't take much skill - so where am I going?  Kansas City for another year...and that is all I know.

I love that I am learning to be content here.  Learning to be content without knowing what's beyond the next step.  Going obediently when the call is there; waiting patiently and contently when the call isn't.  I'm not saying I can do that perfectly - but what a lovely practice to have: finding contentment with where God has put you.

I wish I could go to a park and jump up and down laughing - that's what my heart wants to express right now.